Life has been way too stressful lately and I'm feeling so depressed.
There's been a bit of a lack of communication in my family. My big sister who's in Japan for some reason isn't replying to anyone in the family on Facebook or commenting on our statuses, or anything, and we're just worried about that.
Still feeling sad about not being invited back to the next semester of my internship, which I really loved doing aside from some frustrations. I still talk to some of the people I've worked with, which is nice.
Now I'm back taking classes. I don't mind the editing class I'm taking on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but I hate the film/video production class I'm taking on Mondays and Wednesdays. It's just too much work and stress, and I don't think I can handle all that responsibility. I'm not happy in that class, and I'm not having any fun really. To quote Charlie Brown, "Just the thought of another school day makes my stomach hurt!" (it really does feel that way) I'm actually thinking of dropping from the class after the first assignment, due to my lack of interest. And I'm very lonely at school, since I don't even have my best friends there. One left school after he left the internship I had, and the other told me she won't be on campus this semster . After a year and a half of working for a theater company and now taking film classes, I realized Mara Wilson (from Matilda and Mrs. Doubtfire) was right: Working in film is not very fun compared to working in theater.
All of that has made me very depressed and I've been tea and eating sugar-related stuff to help me feel better. I even feel like I have trouble drawing lately from all this, not having ideas for drawing, or some stuff I draw doesn't turn out well. I think it's artist block. Anyway, I'm sorry if I sound emo or moping. I'm just hoping things will work out.